Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Blowing Roses

Now someone asked;

"What is it when someone tells you to put the "energy" into a rose a blow it up?"

This is an excellent question and one I pondered on for a bit. Now the idea in the institute and other places it was a "tool" for releasing energy from your space. Now if we are all in agreement that the "energy" we are discussing here is actually a pseuoscience and not a concept of faith, we can take this into another realm and look at it more objectively.

If you believe in "energy" that is one thing. To take it as a fact of reality is quite another. To believe that there is a life force to everything is an animisitic and aboriginal belief systems, nothing inherently wrong with this. It is a primitive means of trying to explain how things work in in a more "metaphysical" terminology. To say that you can feel the energy, manipulate it or that you are a master over it, is delusional and part of a supersititious belief system. Here we have crossed the line from rational thought and belief into the realm of delusion, magical thinking and altered states of conciousness.

The idea of putting a foreign energy into a rose and blowing up that rose, is designed to neutralize the energy so that it can go down your grounding cord. However, we were often blowing roses up as part of our meditation.

Let a thought come up, or an energy, let it go into a rose, blow up the rose and keep on blowing up roses. Now over a period of time, after blowing up roses, something begins to happen to your mind. It seemingly starts to go quiet. Or is it really going quiet? Or is it going numb? Like any repetitive action, you begin to "numb out" and go into an altered state of conciousness (ASC). Over time, you actually begin to dissociate. The numbness is like watching TV for hours on end mindlessly. You start to shut off. Then there is a momentary euphoria and then something big happens.


Thats right, your mind pops open!

At this stage of the game, from so much mindless repetitions of blowing roses and going into an ASC, you then push yourself over the edge into something else. This is actually the first stages of hypomania. After the euphoric rush, your mind and moods start to change and you start going "higher." In conjunction with the other tools of grounding and running energy, you start to push your moods out of wack with what is normal. You are now in the first stages of hypomania. Barely perceptible but still hypomania. In this state, you feel wonderful, euphoric, certain and "in touch." Nothing could be farther from the truth in regards to being in touch with reality. You are so far out of touch, that you are bordering on going over the edge. To an individual with a true mental health issues such as the Bipolar Disorder, these techniques would push them into having an eppisode. Its happened both at the institute and from what Mike Kawahara and Joy Butler have told me, it has clearly happened at SRF. I think that the "Santa Claus" character they speak about is quite likely Bipolar.

Now here are a few definitions for you


Hypomania (literally, below mania) is a mood state characterized by persistent and pervasive elevated or irritable mood, and thoughts and behaviors that are consistent with such a mood state. People experiencing hypomanic symptoms typically have a flight of ideas, a decreased need for sleep and/or rest, are extremely outgoing and daring, and have a great deal of energy. However, unlike full-blown mania, those with hypomanic systems are generally fully functioning. Specifically, it is distinguished from mania by the absence of psychotic symptoms and by its lower degree of impact on functioning. Hypomania is a feature of two mood disorders: bipolar II disorder and cyclothymia, but can also occur in schizoaffective disorder. Hypomania can also have a benefit in creativity and productive energy. Many have cited it as a gateway to their success, and an incredibly large number of people with creative talents have experienced hypomania or other symptoms of bipolar disorder. Classic symptoms of hypomania include mild euphoria, a flood of ideas, endless energy, and a desire and drive for success.

*pressured speech; rapid talking
*inflated self-esteem or grandiosity;
*decreased need for sleep;
*flight of ideas or the subjective experience that thoughts are racing;
*easy distractibility and attention-deficit (superficially similar to attention deficit hyperactivity disorder);
*increase in psychomotor agitation; and
*involvement in pleasurable activities that may have a high potential for negative *psycho-social or physical consequences (e.g., the person engages in unrestrained buying sprees, sexual indiscretions, or foolish business investments).[1]


Euphoria is medically recognized as a mental/emotional state defined as a sense of great (usually exaggerated) elation and wellbeing.[1] Technically, euphoria is an affect,[2] but the term is often colloquially used to define emotion as an intense state of transcendent happiness combined with an overwhelming sense of wellbeing. The word derives from Greek εὐφορία, "power of enduring easily, fertility".[3][4] Euphoria is generally considered to be exaggerated, resulting from an abnormal psychological state with or without the use of psychoactive drugs and not typically achieved during the normal course of human experience. However, some natural behaviors, such as activities resulting in orgasm or the triumph of an athlete, can induce brief states of euphoria.[2] Euphoria has also been cited during certain religious or spiritual rituals and meditation.[5]

I can tell everyone reading this blog, that I was quite familiar with both hypomania and euphoria on a regular basis as I used the tools. When I stoped doing the meditations, the stoped recurring. Also, I stoped having the ups and DOWNS associated with doing the meditations.

Yes, the downs. You see, when you are putting your brain is such an altered state of conciousness, and you are doing so many things to it, what goes up must come down. Often resulting in what was refered to as a "growth period." Yah, you see the "growth periods" we experienced from doing this bs were a direct result of playing with our minds in an altered state of conciousness. There are triggers in our mind, Bio/Neuro feedback triggers which can cause specific things. Triggers which are better left alone untill we have a more thorough and comprehensive understanding of the mind and its workings.

Ultimately, the blowing roses technique is a form of a mantra. A repetitive mantra. I have said it before, I will say it again. A mantra, when used repetitively, except for maybe a few times to start off a meditation, numbs things out. Shuts off the mind and begins the process of putting one into an ASC and pushing one more towards Euphoria and Hypomania.

Ultimately when you look at the process of blowing roses from a more objective perspective, you can see that you are going down an endless road towards insanity and perhaps a permenent dissociative state.

Yep, insanity and a dissociative state!

Ok I want an order of fries with my Dissociative Identity Disorder. NOT!!!

Sorry Susan and all the rest of you BPI/CDM/SRF/Midwest Psychic Institute, CDM -Washington and all you other pocketbook spiritualists and religions, your time is up! The rational sane mind is a hell of a lot stronger than your lines of tripe ever were! I made it back, so can others!


  1. I saw an article called "Mysticism and Psychosis" just the other day. The author compares a "mystical experience" (meaning for us, some kind of spiritual revelation or vision) and a psychotic episode.

    He shows two accounts of those experiences and asks if the reader can tell which is the psychotic episode and which is a mystical experience.

    They appear identical.

  2. While reading this article, chills went down my spine. There is no difference between the mystic transcendent moment and the psychosis. Having had a psychotic break, I can clearly compare the two. I am in a unique position to do so.

    They are indeed one and the same. There is abosolutely no difference whatsoever! It is not a transcendent moment, it is a moment of completely loosing touch with reality. Although parts of the episode felt good, the fact is that I would never want to go back through that again. EVER!

    Having had a psychotic episode, also gave me a reference point to look clearly at the techniques I was taught at the institute. And it is also why I have completely rejected them altogether! They are unsound and dangerous techniques which bring us close to that edge and farther away from humanity.

  3. Jeff, this is totally not for publication, but I wanted to share something with you because finding your blog was what sent me on what has become a fascinating quest:

    Because of our discussions here, re: Michael and Scientology, I started reading and posting on the various ex-Scientologist forums. Wow! There is a huge trend going on of previously idealistic (and in my opinion, vulnerable) people now demanding that irrational organizations be examined and called out for their unproven claims and outrageous abuses. I can confirm that the people are posting the truth--we all had similar experiences--from initially feeling "helped" to being attacked and manipulated. Thank god not destroyed.

    Also, for awhile I felt guilty about sort of accusing M.T. of scamming, but in the last week or so, as I dig deeper into the claims and methods of these psychic "practitioners," I have come to think that not only are Eckhart Tolle and M.T. "dissociated", they ARE scamming money from people. Nothing they seem to promise is real, at all. Isn't that actually fraud, pure and simple? Do they REALLY believe they can produce results and betterment? I thought back to reading (studying and practicing as well) Michael's book, You Are the Answer.

    Some of the information is benign. But the certainty with which he frames his experience of knocking himself out in his bathroom as some kind of PROOF that he "retraced" some journey from nondualistic soul to ego-based human being now sounds ridiculous to me. I've had experiences that were "odd" as well, but just see me selling some idiosyncratic experience as the Truth? not likely! And his reincarnation memory of being the Pharoah's favorite who gave up his life for him and thereby attained psychic superpowers? Uh, Jeff, doesn't that sound like Michael reworking the trauma of being around Lewis?

    Wheels within wheels. Here's hoping the twenty teens are the decade of a new rationality and the breaking of religio-magic cults!

  4. The points you bring up about scamming are valid. And although it may sound like I am playing the Devils Advocate here, I am not, I am only addressing a point.

    MT, Tolle, Byron Katie and others are and truly believe in their "transcendence!" They "know" the truth! Their experiences have validated the "truth" and they whole heartedly believe they have something important to give to people. I also know how they got to this thinking mode, and it was through some sort of psychosis and or mania.

    I have a perspective few will ever have. My mind was shattered and I had a psychosis. My whole existence was "transformed" while in that state. I believed I was the reincarnation of Christ. I thought I was being persecuted by a conspiracy. I thought so many crazy and out of touch things that it would fill volumes. When I was in the initial stages of recovery, I thought it was just a spiritual experience and that I had been touched by God or something. Nothing could be farther from the truth! Then I was presented with facts about psychosis, medications and trauma, then I began to come out of it.

    My first year of recovery from Memorial Day 2007 to Memorial Day 2008 I was anticipating another episode. Memorial Day 2008 came and went with nothing happening outside of a police officer giving me a warning for having a rear tail light out. Some real mystical experience that was! Memorial Day 2008 I felt a tremendous weight lift from me. A true cathartic moment. A year had passed and nothing out of the ordinary had truly occured. I spent Memorial Day 2009 with Mike and Joy in San Jose, once again nothing! A wonderful day to say the least.

    And yes, the past life story sounds too much like MT reworking the trauma of being around Lewis and finding a way of making meaning out of it. Perhaps my initial assessment of him was not to far off, behaving like the Golden Child coming from a dysfunctional family.

    Yes, the do believe they can produce results in peoples lives. However, they refuse to put any of their stuff up to critical scrutiny and let it be examined. If they did, it would not stand the Litmus test. They would be banned and we would have a whole lot more "regulations" regarding these "scammers" However, since they do things under the protection of "religion and spirituality" it is very hard to regulate them. That is slowly changing and for the beter.

    Yes it is fraud, and in one of the biggest senses of the word. They are taking peoples money and not providing them with anything solid in return. False promises, delusions and outright lies we have been fed. Well now its time to say how much "indigestion" it has caused us. Our stories are being heard and more and more people are "coming out" to speak about the abuses they faced. This new century has seen massive changes on many level across the board and few if any of the religio-magic cults will survive or move forward.

    True rationality, logic and reasoning at their highest levels appear to be intuitive. Achieving said states is very difficult, it demands discipline, focus, true self awareness, humbleness, humility and rigorous demands on ones personal resouces. However, the results are always the same. Some of those results are peace and true happiness. Truly beautiful things.

    1. It has been said that the mystic and the madman are in the same ocean. The difference between them is that the mystic knows how to swim. Anyone who has achieved visions and states of mind involving energy healing, clairvoyance, and the experience of divine presence and/or the one-ness of all being can be diagnosed as psychotic given the clinical definitions. This would include Jesus; Gandhi;all of the prophets of the Torah (Old Testament); all of the saints of the Catholic Church; Black Elk; the painter/ poet William Blake; the Dalai Lama; masters among Zen Buddhists, Chassidic Jews, and Sufi Moslems; and dozens of other magnificent human beings, both known and unknown. The fact that there are scammers taking you half the way there in return for most of your money doesn't mean the real thing doesn't exist.

    2. Safta,

      At best your "statement" is alegorical. There is no modern proof that what you say acutally exists or existed. Energy healing, clairvoyance and other "divine" experiences are nothing more than delusions at best and halucinations and mania at their worst. It does not prove that their is a deity or even the presence of so called spiritual abilities whatsoever.

      Did you know that almost all Buddhist scriptures and Buddhist teachers (espcially Zen teachers) do not promote or advocate for these "experiences" and discourage their students from going down this path? Ever wonder why. The reason is that it leads to self absorption, Narcissism and ultimately a complete and total disconection from reality in favor of the so called "spiritual world" which does not exist.

      When you look at this so called "spiritual experience" it is truly nothing more than a psychosis, even if it is brief and transitory.

      The path of the mystic is ultimately a path that leads to Narcissism. Look at the behavior of a mystic and you will see the traits, the patterns in addition to realizing that their thinking is all about "themselves."

      It has been stated and I wholeheartedly agree with this statement "The greatest expression of Narcsissim is the belief that one has a personal connection and relationship with a divine being." This does not negate the possibility of the presence of divinity, it points out the fact that if we think and feel we have this "connection" we are truly deluding ourselves.

      I could say more but I have said enough.


  5. FYI: Midwest Psychic Institute is now InVision or Invisionspirit in Chicago,Illinois. Same owner from what I understand.

  6. Mike they are identical because in fact the experience cannot be adequately labeled. Like defining the first time you fell in love. Find a word that adequately describes that experience.

  7. I'm thinking of a word. It has eight letters, starts with a "b" and ends with "t".

    Nice try moving the goalposts. If you want to make a real observation, do some homework first.

    The two writings are an example of just how similar a mystic experience is to psychosis and that you really have to be careful when reading those kinds of writings. The author went on to say you'd probably want to take a few minutes to know a little more than usual about the writer so you'll know if he is writing as a spiritual person or a psychotic.

    Didn't you take ten minutes to look at that link I posted before you commented?

    Oh, right. It came to you psychically so following the link and reading the referenced page was unnecessary. My bad...

  8. I just remembered that the deranged psychotic Bill Duby claimed to have copyrighted the term "blowing roses".


    He was hoping everyone would have to pay him if they ever said "blowing roses". I would imagine BPI was at the top of the list.

    I 'll bet Bill would be at the top of a BPI list if he ever tried to assert his bogus copyright against the very people he stole it from. What's the name of it again? The shit list maybe?

    I'm not sure what he did that for, but I am sure stupidity played a role.

    But to us, he presented it as a brilliant business decision. He had many like it. None of them made a penny. Only the looting of his followers was profitable, which only a con man could do well.

  9. ways knew bpi bullshit. makes me sick how many people still say to do it, plus mocking up, ground, etc. so many "schools" still out there including in san francisco where i live, called psychic horizons, i heard it was different than bpi, so i checked it out and it was exactly the same. one time i went in for a "reading", two guys sat in front of me supposedly reading me, they rambled on about bullshit that didnt make sense and i got up in middle and left. always wondered how long they kept talking until they realized i left! makes me sick how many people go for this shit, afraid to say emperor has no clothes. so weird. i always felt it was contradictory the way bpi would tell students to get others out of your space when that was what they were doing to us. it was so obvious to me they were only out for money and were a cult. there was no love or joy. just a bunch of bashing and robots. in the current berkeley bpi "school" is the ugliest silliest painting of bostwick, him in sky with followers below glorifying him. painting makes him look like jesus and the followers bunch of drugged out hippies. this bpi is full of foreign asians who seemed so messed up. silence and sadness. and the "school" is hidden upstairs in a weird office.